... You're on my mind,
Every damn day...
Every time I did something you'd tell me I could do when I had self-doubt.
Every time the boys do something so rotten ornery goofy with or without your coaching.
Every time I want to hibernate away, but the moments of you push me to keep on through..
Some days are good and some days are hard, & it's ok but It always comes down to what you'd want for us and me to do..
And that's to keep living, living fully and unapologetically 💜
I do it too, not just for you but me too.
If I don't, all I feel is
the anger that boils over.
Bc I still after this time, just cannot accept this life where you're not here anymore. It's like a cruel unfair joke... like I'm on the Truman show and I'm waiting for a curtain to fall...
I just want to hear your voice. And see your smile irl.. So I keep hoping some days you're a ghost, a spirit guide, and you'll just eventually let me hear you ... just once. 💜