Here she is...
✨The dress that gives me joy as I found her in Porto, Portugal on our last night there strolling back "home".. when I stumbled into the most charming hole in the wall boutique with lavish little dresses everywhere and beautiful Portuguese madams who were also customers but taking me in as their daughter, pausing their own shopping while I shyly wanted to try her on. They had me twirl and I felt beautiful and joyful like a princess that the dress came home. It was a super special magical moment I'll never forget after a long months prior of depression.. .
✨...and yet, this dress also breaks my heart, angers me and I fall apart everytime I see her or wear her and some days I want to sell her and let her go... Then other days I can't because she's the dress I wore to your wedding, one of the special magical days where I saw you smile the biggest and most I've ever seen you light up ✨ the way you lit us up in our hearts. The dress I wore in some clunky boots and the camera around my neck as I photographed your beauty and joyous moments where you felt like the princess too. 💜
.. it's the dress. And I don't know what to do now ..
But I miss you. 💜